So, we re-tested yesterday and it’s official: Not only did I not lose any inches around my waist or hips, I managed to gain three pounds. This bumped me from a weight I was unhappy but somewhat comfortable with to a weight that is just over half of a REALLY REALLY BIG NUMBER of which I am very scared.
BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING, I know. I know it’s “not about the number,” I know it’s “how you feel” or “how your clothes fit” that matters. BUT. Since I did not lose any inches anywhere AND I gained weight, my clothes do not fit any differently. I do not feel different.
For once, I would like my efforts to pay off. JUST ONCE. It would prove to me that at least it’s possible, that I am capable of seeing change in myself and that working toward a goal is not a huge waste of my time. I do not yet know this.
I have been trying to think of what I would like to do when this class is over next week, and I’m having a hard time coming up with something that still seems fun but isn’t wildly expensive or difficult to maintain. Since we lost the option of a free bus pass at work, I’m now hesitant to pick something that will require me to use the bus to get to, like any classes on the East side or where my current class meets.
We live close to a couple gyms, but I don’t know the first thing about gym memberships and I don’t want to get ripped off. I doubt Daniel would get a membership with me, but the girls at work all go to the same gym so I guess I could start there, but I don’t want to take the same classes as them because they are waaaay more fit than I am. It would just be embarrassing.
I did manage to purchase a Wii Fit, so I have been using that every day this week (well, except for Friday) and I have found that I have fantastic balance. The games are all pretty fun (with the exception of the tightrope walk – how the heck do you get it to recognize you are taking steps? Argh!) and so far my favorite activity is the Hula Hooping. Wii Fit shames you into working out every day so I’m thinking I can at least do something to keep myself in shape while I figure out what I want to do next.