Type O Negative – “Der Untermensch”
I hate not having anything to talk about. I sometimes feel like my website is a testament to how boring my life really is – other people go out and do things, and I… I do homework, play on the Internet, watch movies, and sometimes knit. I am okay with the fact that I am an introvert, I just wish I had some interesting development going on in my life that I could fall back on if need be.
I think that’s why blogs are so popular – people generally have things going on in their lives that develop slowly over a period of time and we’re all waiting with bated breath to find out what happens next. This is especially true of blogs by pregnant ladies, but also for those people who are in the process of buying a house, or people who are planning a wedding, or people raising children. There is always something to look forward to.
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t want to be a part of any of those things. I’d love to have something to be excited about. I suppose I have my impending graduation (mid-December OMG panic) to discuss, but really? I think it’s boring. I make a portfolio website (which, yes, I will probably share here. I’m still a bit weirded out about putting my last name on the Intarwebs, but it’s around if you look for it so I guess it’s not a huge deal), I do the portfolio show (lots of standing around and talking about yourself), I walk, and then it’s over. Yeah, the buildup was three years coming, but it feels so anti-climactic. I’ll be done with school, but I’m not excited about that. I’m looking forward to a bit of an extended vacation where I can visit home and just hang out and knit and maybe embroider some fat-headed birds onto pillowcases, but that’s what I’m looking forward to. It’s not the graduation or the being done with school thing. I’d love to continue taking classes (as long as they don’t ruin my life, which they have had a tendency to do recently), especially trying out some German classes or something. I’m certainly not looking forward to working, that’s for sure.
I know my time will come, eventually. It’s the “eventually” part I’m having an issue with at the moment.