Type O Negative – “Everyone I Love Is Dead”
Thanks for all the well-wishes, everybody! I appreciate every single one. I’m alternately excited and terrified, and I keep having small panicky thoughts like, “I know absolutely nothing and I’m going to go to work and embarrass myself and my school and everyone will hate me” but I’m pretty sure they’re unfounded. I hope. I think I’ll be fine. I start Monday.
I had a dream about spiders the other night. I’m afraid of spiders normally, and I can’t remember what the dream was about now, but I looked up the meaning of spider dreams and was actually pleasantly surprised (creativity, etc.). I really love dream interpretations. They’re like horoscopes – you know you shouldn’t put too much stock in them, but they are SO ON sometimes you can’t help it.
I feel like for the next few weeks, I’m going to have to meticulously plan out all the times I’m going to be doing particular activities. For instance, I’ll be working 29 hours a week, I’ll be in class for 12 hours (plus time spent on the independent study) a week, I walk everywhere so travel time must be included, I need time for homework, I need time for Daniel, and I need a bit of time to myself to play on the computer or knit or something to wind down. I have no idea how to fit that all in. I need a daily planner or something. I tried it once and could never remember to write everything down in it, but maybe it’ll work now? Gah.
Again, thank you. :cheer: