March 20, 2014 5:33 pm

32 Weeks – Breech

I’ll just go ahead and start off this entry by saying I AM FREAKING OUT.

At my last appointment (31 weeks), the baby was out of transverse position and into a tidy up-and-down position, but the midwives weren’t quite sure if she was head up or head down. I was kind of guessing head up based on where I felt kicks, and in the days since then, I am becoming more and more convinced this baby is breech.

AAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!

It’s my other big fear come true! Outside of getting preeclampsia again, my next big fear (which I touched on in my last entry) was being auto-c-sectioned for something and not even getting a trial of labor. Nobody around here does breech births. I don’t even know if I want to try to find somebody that will do a breech VBAC on someone without a previous vaginal birth.

It’s just so unbelievably stressful. If the baby doesn’t turn, there’s no chance I’ll get my homebirth, no chance I’ll have a VBAC, and just a slim chance I’ll even get a trial of labor. All of those things make me so, SO sad.

Typically, all but 5% of babies turn by 33 weeks. I’ve got four more days to turn this baby before I fall into that 5%, and I am spending every day doing breech tilts and hands-and-knees position and elephant walks and inversions and hypnotherapy and homeopathy and NONE OF IT SEEMS TO BE HELPING YET.

I’m looking into acupuncture. I’m following suggestions in this video. The closest chiropractors that do the Webster technique are an hour away but I’ve got their phone numbers just in case.

I feel like I am trying everything and I keep getting more and more freaked out as the days go by and I still feel (what seems like) that hard little head up at the top of my uterus instead of chubby buns.

I am just so jealous of people who have pregnancies without stupid complications. I was so excited about not getting preeclampsia so far that it didn’t even occur to me that I might have something else go wrong. This has totally taken all the wind out of my sails and I don’t know how to deal with it.

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3 Comments

  • Amanda says:

    Oh Meggan!

    Whatever happens with the birth, the most important thing is that you and the baby will be happy and healthy at the end of it. Try not to stress too much about what might or might not happen, and just focus on the end goal. xx

  • Hev says:

    Remember sometimes the baby will turn around at the last minute. Rhea’s Justin was breech until the day before she went into labor. Her OB put her in for a C-section & it was three days away. Then the day before she felt some weird movement *first time mom* & freaked out. She went in & Justin had flipped around & was head down. Her OB told her that she should still get the C-section & then the next morning she went into labor. She had a vaginal birth with no problems. I am not saying that this will happen, just saying that sometimes the baby will do this. He/She may just be gathering their strength or flexing their muscles to get ready.

    Try to remain calm & the baby & your body knows what it is doing. I can understand that it is hard to do, but I believe in you.

    Plus, like Amanda said. It is the end goal that is the best part of having a baby. Just think no matter how it happens you will have a beautiful baby to add to your loving family. *hugs & much love to you*

  • Audrey says:

    What you want has no effect on this baby right now.

    Having a birthing experience that is just how you want it to be, with all the benefits of a vaginal birth, would be ideal. It’s only one day though. It’s like your wedding day — very important until it’s over, because the truly important thing is life after.

    Wesley was a caesarian, right? Is he not perfect? I imagine he is! Whatever happens, be safe and don’t let wants or your previous birthing experience letdown cloud your judgement. Yes, speak up for yourself, but ultimately the goal is to have the baby with the mommy alive too.