I fell asleep earlier tonight, at 10-something, and woke up for no good reason at one. After lying in bed for an hour trying to fall asleep but only accomplishing an awful lot of ceiling staring, I got back up.
I feel really, really anxious at the moment, and I think it’s less of the actual wedding stuff and more just being stressed about packing (hoping I don’t forget anything I’ll need for the next two weeks) and handing off my projects at work. I almost felt sick toward the end of the day because I was so anxious about it. There’s still some small, accessory wedding things I would have liked to have done before right now and I’m not sure how to get them done in the next couple of hours.
One of them has been solved for me – I was going to print a bunch of the cute little note cards for our wish bowl, but I had to unplug and restart my computer earlier (we installed an air conditioner and I had to switch power outlets to accommodate it, which I was more than happy to do considering it was above 90°F today) and my printer was freaking out. No problem, I thought, I’ll just troubleshoot and figure out what’s wrong.
No go. Every light on the printer is blinking at me frantically and offering no helpful information at all. The troubleshooter is asking every possible question it can think of, since I keep answering “No, I am still having a problem.”
After the troubleshooter finally suggested I reboot the printer and I tried that and failed, it occurred to me that maybe I should just unplug it for a bit. Ten seconds later, FIXED. It prints a test page. In the dark at 3am it looks fine. I print a test of my PDF. Fail. Everything is blue instead of brown and now I have wasted another two sheets of card stock. I don’t know what its problem is (low on ink?) but I do not want to deal with it. I will just go and bring it somewhere and pay them to print my file even though I bought a whole ream of card stock for this express purpose. ARGH.
I am so convinced I am going to forget my shoes or the rings or something important. We are getting the marriage license there so I don’t have to worry about that yet, except I’m also convinced I’m going to forget to go and get that.
I usually do really well with to-do lists, but in some cases they just overwhelm me because I can see really how much I still have yet to do and then I get option-paralysis and I can’t start anything.
That said, I am so, so excited to be off work for two weeks! Everyone at work was so sweet when I left, giving me hugs and congratulations and making sure I Twitter while I’m gone. I seriously work with the best group of people. I’m excited for the wedding and the honeymoon and the whole experience, and I’m so glad I have my friends and family and you, Internets, to share it with.