The Beatles – “Because”
I’ve been thinking a bit lately about what I should do for my 21st birthday. As most of you probably know already, I’m really not much of a drinker, and I don’t plan on getting totally wasted when I turn 21. I know I’m lame, you don’t have to say it. I can’t say I see the point in drinking so much that you throw up, black out, can’t remember what happened the night before and then feel awful the whole next day. Um, it doesn’t sound appealing to me. That’s all.
However, I am not quite so lame that I don’t want to do anything, so I’ve been trying to come up with something. And I’m having a hard time, for a few reasons.
1. Drinking isn’t really that important to me.
This means that I don’t really want to go out all night and bar-hop. WTF else am I supposed to do when I turn 21 if I don’t do that?
2. Finding people to invite is, um, difficult.
I really, really wish I had a close group of girlfriends to go out with, but alas, I do not. I am, apparently, not a very social person. Who knew?
3. I start thinking about #2. A lot.
Then I get all upset, like, OMG I HAVE NO FRIENDS, when really, I do, it’s just that most of them live thousands of miles away and I only “hang out” with them through the computer.
4. Then I start thinking about #3. A lot.
I begin to wonder if there’s something wrong with me and HOW COME I CAN NEVER MEET ANYBODY FROM SCHOOL? I have a gazillion acquaintences, very few close friends. And most of them are male anyway. I can’t imagine getting drunk in front of people I know well, how would I do it in front of a bunch of guys I don’t know that well? Besides, the one time I tried inviting someone over who I met in school (I’M LOOKING AT YOU, KEITH) he didn’t show. So, there’s that. I do not want to end up the person that sends 20 invites and has 3 people show. Or no one. Gah.
There has to be something I can do, save for going back to Idaho and hanging out at the 219 with Heidi and Meagan, listening to Black Lightning play, which is actually what sounds most appealing at this point.