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I think I’m giving up on my C++ stuff. It is totally not coming together, I’ve talked to, like, eight other people in the class and none of them can get it and it’s due in a little less than 14 hours and I am NOT staying up that entire time to fumble around for hours and hours and eventually not get it. I’m just not going to do that to myself.

This is probably the stupidest I have ever felt while doing any assignment ever. I feel so STUPID that I can’t get anything to work, regardless of the fact that I don’t think the teacher gave us enough knowledge to do the project and regardless of the fact that seemingly no one else in the class can get it either. And I hate feeling stupid. Hate it. It’s so foreign to me and I hate hate hate it and the teacher didn’t email me back about my question yet and none of my friends get it either so they can’t help me even though they try really hard.

WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!

On the plus side, I totally got to see Keith today. He came by the school with Ben H. and a girl named Stacey that went to Ai as well, and we hung out and talked a bit and gave each other hugs (TWO! Two hugs! From the guy that doesn’t like hugs!) and it was GREAT. (For those of you not in the know, Keith and I were friends ever since our first term at Ai, and he graduated about six months ago and I’ve only seen him once since, and that was a random downtown chance meeting. We email occasionally, but he lives in a different town so hanging out is difficult.) Oh man. I’m so glad I got to see him. Yay!

And just now (yes, at midnight) another friend from school, Chris, began helping me with my C++ – he’s feeding me code and it’s working, so I’m running with it. My array now shuffles and prints out the appropriate cards. It does absolutely nothing else at this point, but at least it doesn’t break and give me a “I’ve performed an illegal operation and must close” error. Chris is awesome.